I have always, by virtue of what and who, been left last. I have followed the leader, usually some male, probably some sort of father figure, with naivety beyond my rational capacity. And, at the end of the day, have been deserted, left holding the can. It's a miserable story.

Oddly, it all sounds like 'the buck stops here'; sadly, I am simply the last one left behind. 'Always the guilty one, Len!', said the priest fondlyingly!.